True North Empowerment

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Being Real

I feel like I've been through so much and continue to experience so much that I can identify with anyone. I have also personally tried every service we offer before making a decision to put it all together. In the past I've tried to seek out services to help me feel better, gain understanding, find a reason for things I do or that have been done to me. I've seen change, change in myself, and I want others to know it's possible.

I used to be a typical type A, OCD, people pleasing, bitchy in the background type of girl. I had very high expectations of myself and everyone around me. You know, that kind of person just doesn't work...for myself or a lot of people around me.

Fast forward to perspective. Life is all about perspective. Life is the roles we carry and fulfill. I have so many roles, but why not fulfill them in a way that makes life better? After the death of my husband, at the age of 36 with 2 boys ages 2 & 7, I felt over and over that I had wasted so much time. Things had to be different. I had to change.

Who am I? Mother, daughter, wife, nurse, widow, remarried widow, family member, friend. How do I serve these roles in a better way? How do I let go of the expectations, let go of having to make everything perfect... learn to take care of myself like I always have of others?

Perspective continues to grow. My dad, my pops, my friend, died a year before my husband. You have to appreciate your family, your friends. Tomorrow is not guaranteed. I started looking within, seeking things to help me change. I am the mother of 2 boys with chronic illness, 2 boys who could die as quickly as my husband. Both are diagnosed with the same heart condition we lost their Dad to. I live in a state of fear, but how can I change that? Again, look within.

I started to seek out meditation, to help me deal with grief, stress, life!. A great therapist once told me, "Mary, you need to learn to just BREATHE!". I have to learn to breathe?? Yes, really. Breath is life. It's the essence of everything. Stop, look, breathe.

Breathing led to meditation and mindfulness. Meditation led to essential oils. Grief and oils led me to one of my greatest friends. My friend led me to angels, reiki and DNA activation. I found purpose in all these things. I found my healing self in all these things. I found what I needed to heal that girl from the beginning. I feel awakened! I feel that all the bad stuff really does help me gain a new look of understanding. Yes, this was a quick, few sentance journey, but it has really been years in the making, but you get the gist.

Get started or continue on your journey....if I can do it, so can you.